This moment's desire

i never really had a problem
because of leaving
but everything reminds me of her
this evening
so if i seem a little out of it, sorry
but why should i lie?
everything reminds me of her
the spin of the earth impaled a silhouette of the sun on the steeple
and i gotta hear the same sermon all the time now from you people
why are you staring into outer space crying
just because you came across it and lost it?
everything reminds me of her
- Elliot Smith , Everything reminds me of her


It never hits you when its supposed to. Numbness prevails . Then feeling. Longing.
I've fallen countless times in this life. Most turned out tragic when self inflicted hurt was needed just to divert yourself to another level of pain. So we poison ourselves thinking that all our medication will flush the pain away and give us some answers, a clue, a cure for our fragile hearts bursting at the wrong moments filled with rage, desire and a sense of outrageous madness at the world.